The Search Party

I wondered if the others felt
as heroic
and as safe: my unmangled family
slept while I slid uncertain feet ahead
behind my flashlight’ s beam.
Stones, thick roots as twisted as
a ruined body,
what did I fear?
I hoped my batteries
had eight more lives
than the lost child.
I feared I’ d find something.

Reader, by now you must be sure
you know just where we are,
deep in symbolic woods.
Irony, self-accusation,
someone else’ s suffering.
The search is that of art.

You’ re wrong, though it’ s
an intelligent mistake.
There was a real lost child.
I don’ t want to swaddle it
in metaphor.
I’ m just a journalist
who can’ t believe in objectivity.
I’ m in these poems
because I’ m in my life.
But I digress.
A man four volunteers
to the left of me
made the discovery.

We circled in like waves
returning to the parent shock.
You’ ve read this far, you might as well
have been there too. Your eyes accuse
me of false chase. Come off it,
you’ re the one who thought it wouldn’ t
matter what we found.
Though we came with lights
and tongues thick in our heads,
the issue was a human life.
The child was still
alive. Admit you’ re glad.