My Grandmother Plays Emily in Our Town


I am asking something gone
return: at least one night, her face

a girl’ s, just twenty, and
to be married in a month,

holding the dress’ s hem to her lips
as places are called. And I,

come along too late to know her
trembling, parting the curtain —

let me hear her now
perched on the ladder, recite

“But Mama,...
am I pretty enough...?”


When Emily marries, ladies in hats
drown out the proper vows

— it’ s what the play requires;
the everyday over the sacred. Even the set

is made of items found in the actors’ garages
so we always see back to the bones.

Here my grandmother stands at the altar
with her fictional George

and gossip swells in the pews
which are rows of folding chairs.


Among the murmuring departed,
in the cemetery,

my grandmother takes
her place at the empty plot.

She’ s the newcomer
who can’ t believe she’ s dead

if the living roam
just on the crest of this hill.

My grandmother in white
poplin dress and hair ribbon

lifts her arms in despair —
Emily, untouched by the rain.


Tomorrow her face will glow
on the cover of The Shreveport Times —

a gorgeous girl demanding her life.
“But oh!” she cries in Emily’ s voice,

“I can go back there
and live all those days over again...”


So Emily steps back
into childhood

though the wiser dead
have told her don’ t —

into her mother’ s kitchen,
her twelfth birthday, a moment

she thought she was happy.
She watches now

that life: mother speaking
gruffly, father late to work.

Dead Emily kisses the cheek
of the classmate playing her mother —

understanding, in that kitchen,
they’ d all been blind:

they never knew those people
they said they loved.


My grandmother maintains
her grace to the end.

She is the queen of the theater;
all of Shreveport melts for her smile.

She holds her palms out
to feel the heavy drops as the curtains close,

though she knows this rain
is only the sound of rain.